Feeling a very heavy heart today as I came across some photos from my iphone last year around this time when we welcomed Mulder in to our lives. He was a young kitten with a world of bad experiences that were so ugly and dark. He experienced some of the worst of humanity and had some health related challenges that he eventually over came. We loved him so much and he just became part of our family. We never knew, never imagined his time would be so short with us. We got him just before Christmas 2014 and by summer of 2015 he was diagnosed with a fatal virus. Saying goodbye crushed our hearts and my wife and I miss him so much. For those of us with pets and animals we know that unconditional love and those lessons about life that we learn from our pets. That connection is so amazing I consider it a precious gift from God. I do love technology and video games but mankind cannot compare to the creative talents of God. My cats did not just evolve in to being these amazing little creatures. They were created by God and no one will convince me otherwise...that is the power of my faith.
When I said goodbye to my cat Scully I felt such an deep sadness but a renewed feeling of faith and belief that I will some day see my lost pets and family. Heaven to me is real, it exists in my heart and to me gives me that much needed hope for something better than this world. Mulder experienced some pure evil from humanity and I know God didn't create us to treat his creations that way. I am thankful we were able to love him and create a home for him that surrounded him with love. As christmas 2015 comes I will feel sadness but also a calm for knowing he was here to teach me and I was here to love him. Not really caring who reads this....this was written for Mully and for me. I love you lil dude....I know you're gone but you live in my heart and I know God will reconnect us one day.
Your tall cuddle buddy Randy! xoxox
I want to write words today to express my sadness, but my wife Jen wrote some beautiful ones for us.....so I am copying and pasting what she wrote to my blog.
Thank so much for all your support over the last 48 hours as we dealt with our baby Mulder's illness and diagnosis. He was only about one year old.
I whispered goodbyes and I-love-yous and stroked him while he left us at about 1pm today. The vet felt that his fever was getting pretty high and he almost definitely had FIP as we had ruled out most other possibilities. But more importantly, the vet believed Mulder was already in crisis today, and this truly helped me make the hard decision.
I feel at peace with this, and I'm grateful that he did not suffer too long or too much before we knew what was happening to him.
I spent the morning cuddling him. And bawling. Im not gonna lie. He ate some fat food with gravy (his favourite) with happy enthusiasm, but he couldn't finish. About five minutes before we left for his diagnostic test, he went and sat inhis carrier for the first time ever. It was like he knew.
I know so many of you enjoyed watching and hearing about him. I got so many private messages over the last six months from people saying how much they enjoyed him. Thank you for those. We enjoyed him too. I hope his little life with us was so great that it erased all the awful stuff he went through to be here.
Top 10 things I'll miss the most about Mulder (but not limited to 10 of course):
10) I will miss him wrecking all the things.
9) I will miss him crashing out exhausted after wrecking all the things.
8) I will miss his fascination with the flushing toilet.
7) I will miss him running between the shower curtains and falling in.... And having a shower with me.
6) I will miss him being Finnegan's buddy. Nahla could take him or leave him. We can be honest.
5) I will miss him turning on the light. Then turning off the light. Then turning it back on. Then off. Then on. Then...
4) I will miss putting his toys away only to find that he dumped them all out again seconds later cuz he likes it better that way. I mean, how is a guy supposed to find something? And the giant chewbacca lol. Well, giant compared to him.
3) I will miss his enthusiasm for food. Him jumping into my plate of lasagna and the look that said he just hit the jackpot, watching him eating wet food with utter enthusiasm, and his level of focus when he was trying to sneak his face into my plate of food.... Or trying to sneak food from my mouth. He wasn't picky apparently.
2) I will miss seeing him chilling out on Randy's legs looking like he's watching tv too. Like a dude. And cuddling like a baby who knows he's safe and loved.
1) I will miss his spunky little character that was constantly in my face and in my heart. I don't care if he wrecked all the things.
Mulder was a very special, beautiful little guy. He had a very rocky start, and it took 5 months for his path to lead him here. He was here little more than six months, and was almost a year old. I'm glad we saved him and I think he knew happiness and love here. Helping him eased our pain from losing Scully, and now we say goodbye sweet baby kitten.
